druNAsty: June 2006

知道吗?

你知道吗?
我可是多么的关心你...

你知道吗?
不知是爱还是喜欢的感觉是多么辛苦?

你知道吗?
爱你也不知怎么说是多么的辛苦?

你知道吗?
关心也不知如何表达是多么辛苦?

你知道吗?
我可是多么的关心和但心你?

你知道吗?
你知道我心要的什么吗?

你到底知道吗?
你知道吗?

Lonely

Been going to and back from work by myself very frequent these days.

In the cab looking out the window, seeing the cars that drove past and etc. It actually makes you think a lot.

You can always see the playful/cheerful/bitchy/the-non-stop-laughing-machine guy while work or whatsoever but ... still ...
I feel lonely at times.

Maybe i should rephrase it -

I feel lonely

Forgetting ...

In our life,
We do not need or intend to remember every person who walk through our life
or every single thing that happened in our life.

Where as when you intend to forget something,
it always happens to be something that stays in your heart.

The truth is,
learning to forget is harder than learning to remember.

Way harder...

Enough

Ok... i've had enough !!! working life is just getting worse with such area manager!! how on earth did such person was borne? how on earth did such people even exist in this world. this is ridiculous !!!
-you f*cking invite yourself to our dinner.
-you f*cking plan another dinner with our reward for winning the best store award and you f*cking invite yourself to the dinner again.
-you f*cking call me brainless for doing such thing when you're the one who asked me to do it this way
-you f*cking say i have bad organization skills when you're the one who organizes it
-you f*cking take all the credits of my hardwork as yours and say i'm not performing
-you f*cking say all my work are shit
-you f*cking say it's your work when someone praises my work
-you f*cking gave me empty promises to make me stay in this blardee shop so u can take all the credits
-you f*cking bitch !
-f*cking fat ass bitch!!
-f*cking BITCH!!

bah im done with my state of anger. bah i'm cool now! hahahhahaa call me mean or a bitch i dun care but till u work with her u'd understand how frustrated am i ! am going out for dinner now... wooohooo see ya

我真的受傷了

燈光也暗了　
音樂低聲了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了　人是無聊了

我的心開始想你了

電話響起了　
你要說話了
還以為你心裡對我又想念了
怎麼你聲音變得冷淡了

是你變了　是你變了

燈光熄滅了　
音樂靜止了
滴下的眼淚已停不住了
天下起雨了　人是不快樂
我的心真的受傷了

我的心真的受傷了

如果的事

如果你已經不能控制每天想我一次
如果你因為我而誠實
如果你看我的電影聽我愛的CD
如果你能帶我一起旅行

如果你決定跟隨感覺為愛勇敢一次
如果你說我們有彼此
如果你會開始相信這般戀愛心情
如果你能給我如果的事

我只要你一件如果的事

有时

有时侯,
觉得自己好孤独...
仿佛没朋友一样...
朋友,
真的是朋友吗?
他们能在你最最需要一个肩膀依靠时,
他们真的会在吗?
朋友真的那么重要吗?
他们真的是你朋友吗?
说真的,
东西还没发生就是很好的朋友...
到了某种地步当你最最需要他们时,
你才会知道谁才是你朋友...
或者你才会发现你根本没朋友...

我本身可说朋友不多...
有时反而享受自己一个人过,
一个人烦要烦的事,
一个人吃想吃的东西,
一个人做想做的事,
一个人去想去的地方,
一个人静静的生活..
一个人反而会觉的活的根自由根快乐.

最经开始变的好冷漠,
好冷淡的对待人了...

我也不知道为什么....

看开...

要怎样忘记你的脸庞.
要怎样才能不遗憾
遗失的感觉
要如何才不会重燃
应该要忘记你的
没必要遗憾什么
心真的死了
就算遇见了你
也能大方笑着

一个人

甚麼時候開始
變得不想講話,
不想見人,
不想交朋友,
不想笑
變得享受一個人,
喜歡一個人吃飯,
一個人去自己喜歡的地方,
一個人靜靜的生活

My Birthday

Went to cafe flam on the 8th to celebrate my birthday with Cheryl, Yao, Kamini and Kayti but ended up with more than what i expected. Came Willie then Mervyn. We started off with 8 jugs of beers than Willie got me a jug of Long Island then the girls got me a flaming lambo then Mervyn got me a jug of Sex on the Beach (?). Followed by free flow of dewars when i went inside flam and found Alvin, Wan Lu and Kelvin.

Conclusion: i got fcuking pissed drunk and i couldn't wake up the second day for work. Reached work right on the dot but ended up working half day due to my massive hangover.

Scenes: It was a great scene for Cheryl and Yao as they were looking at me puking into the bucket of mop-water. Then today while working ran to toilet to puke all the water i drank in the morning. Darn!

Well, it was a blast that night and I was indeed very happy!! ho ho ho. The night was more like a catch up session and a reunion for Kayti, Yao, Mervyn, Willie and I(CIMP-ians). Also the catch up session for the JB people. It was fun and I'm still thinking what made us left. I remembered every single detail of what happened, what i drank, how i went home and all but i just couldn't recall why we left. hrmm .... Thanks to all of you who celebrated with me !!! Thanks a lot ! I really appreciated it and you guys wouldn't know how much this means to me ... =) thanks a lot ...

Disclaimer: I will not considered myself drunk. I would say i was very High. I'm serious i wan't drunk! =Pspan>